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This blog is the story of my new life: Being a single mom, working full time, going to school, trying to make ends meet, and dealing with the hurt and anger from the events that have put me in this position. I have made it thru the first year of being a single mom, and am going to blog out year two every day. I LOVE being a mom. It is the most important thing in the world to me. My son is what i live for, my reason for getting out of bed every day and carrying on with the daily struggle of life

Sunday, July 18, 2010

more trying times

Well thank God for my mom. She got me to work and back yesterday and today, but tomorrow has to work herself and i have no way to work. this sucks so bad. I have no running vehicle at this point and no way to get to work and take my son to daycare. No money to fix either vehicle. I truly don't know what I'm going to do at this point. Also cant get to school tomorrow night. I feel like my life has spun out of control and i cant make it stand still again. How different things have become. I never in my wildest dreams would have imagined that at almost 29 years old, this is what my life would be. I just want someone to wrap their arms around me and tell me that everything is going to be OK. Not to worry. But there is no one there, No one that CAN do it. My mom would love to but she, like many others right now, is just getting by. I feel ashamed of myself. I had my life together at a young age. i had a good, stable job, a car, plenty of money in the bank, and a 10 year plan. How on earth did that plan get so off track. I'm doing good just to make it thur each week and now i probably wont even be able to do that. I HAVE to have a vehicle. there's no way around that. Now how in the world do i get this done? I pray everyday for GOD to help me, but to this point my prayers have not been answered. I know that he test us, when oh when will my test be passed???  I really don't know how much more i can take.

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